May Days

I am having diapers made, 25 to be exact. Too bad it is a month away from Kaine's 2nd birthday. Potty training is right around the corner. I wonder how he will do? I hope well. Hopefully soon I will have a few pictures of some cute diapers/training pants. I had the material, so I decided to go ahead with the project. I just outsourced most of it this time, so it would actually get done!

On another note, we are having a construction site birthday party in my backyard! I am really looking forward to it. Three legged races, digging in dirt, playing in water, throwing water balloons, eating cake and smashing a pinata! Sounds like a ton of fun doesn't it?

Oh yeah, we are also going to be paying our first school fee on the first! How exciting is that? It will be a good day.Go here to see the school he will be in.

Laundry Baskets are Dangerous

The funniest thing just happened! Kaine was in my room watching Cars, when I heard from the living room, "Oh! Aaagghhh!" Which I ran to! What happened?  I walk into my room. Kaine is in the dirty clothes basket flailing around like a turtle that is on its back and can't get up (which is what he was!). It was honestly hilarious! The poor boy couldn't get on the bed (is what I am thinking) so thought, "Oh here is a comfy basket full of blankets and clothes, I will sit here". Well, the basket looked fuller than in was and the poor dear fell right in as he backed up to sit in it! Now I wish I had my camera but it would not have been a good time to take a picture anyway, poor thing was slightly traumatized! But, oh, how funny it was!!!

Stuff that has been on my mind, while I have been away.

Kaine weighs 36 lbs. He will be two in May. I think this is amazing information. It just seems so weird to me to have a child some days. I think, "Is he really mine or is this some sort of dream? Will I wake up and find that I have been asleep this whole time?" If so, unplug the machine. I don't want to wake up!
He is such an incredible joy to have around. I can't even describe it. I love being a mom more than I love being anything else. I know what true love is, I am able to see how Jesus loves us through this relationship. Isn't that just the biggest, eye opening experience. When your child brings you to Jesus' love?

I don't have any pictures to post. I think I am going to leave that for FaceBook. I just want to write my thoughts here, even if I am the only one reading it. It helps, just to get it out into a neutral territory. Plus, I think that one day it will be something Kaine may want to read. The true thoughts that run into my head. No matter if they are ugly, pretty, or otherwise.

I am moving forward with midwifery school. UNF is annoying me. But I knew that getting involved with them would. They always have annoyed me on some level. I really do hope that something happens soon on the financial front. I am not sure how I am going to be able to pay for school if my loan doesn't come through. I realize why it has to be this way. My past coming back to haunt me. I wish they knew how much I have changed. It will work out, somehow. Even if I have to put it off for another year. I hope not, I am not good at waiting. Maybe God is trying to teach me patience. Either way, I am going ahead with the Childbirth Education course, Breastfeeding class and the Doula training. So, if school doesn't happen hopefully I will have something to fall back on. I think I may even look into becoming a Bradley Method instructor. I don't know though, I think you have to have a Bradley birth in order to become an instructor. We shall see.